recently, i've got the urge to fulfil my dream of being a singer...when i was young, my onli aim for my future was to become a famous singer lyk sun yan zi and i din realli tik alot for the changes in my life...but as i grew older, hesitation conquered mi...wat stopped mi to tik was, friends, family, love and also my time...if i were to be a singer, i cant hang out freely wif my friends animore! not to sae go out to have a meal wif them, just this, gossips or even rumours may occured...i will not be able to stand the "special" stare of the public too...besides, my parents may be neglected cos i may have to travel alot and this is wat my mum dislike abt...worse comes to worst, i cant even have a peaceful date! the media may write all sorts of things lyk "oh, jess boyfriend is this this this" GOSH! i can onli confirm tat this relationship will not last...hahaz...haiz...but i realli wanted my dreams to comes true...
actually, i'm saving up money to join the classes at hai die(ocean butterflies music forest) cos i got frens there and i heard it good...but! but! BUT! i cant bear to let go wat i have now... :(
i asked kun yi abt this, and he actually said tat, if there is a chance for him to be a star he is willing to sacrisfy everything and go for it, cos this is once in a life time, or should i sae, other ppl wan also dun have de chance! yah! i consider this b4 and of course i will go for it if this chance was given to mi, but i may regret terribly...tats y i m damn confused now...HELP! CAN SOMEONE PLS GIVE MI ADVISES?!

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